Laura's personal blog:

 

 

26.03.26

 

Wild Ride.

 

Happy New Astrological Year. Spring is Here :)

 

Wow, it's been a while since I've had the space, time and felt settled enough to write my blog. Life itself is a wild ride, but the last few years have been especially wild for me. Since leaving my last apartment on Gozo, which I loved so much as it felt like a cave/ temple, had a working well and birthing 'womb' room... I followed the call, put all my belongings into my storage garage and flew to Australia, to reunite with women and whales on the east coast between K'Gari and Hervey Bay. For the 2nd year running I was privileged to spend 4 days out on a boat, be in close proximity to humpback whales and spend time in the water with them. Auntie Karen, an Aboriginal land custodian, hosted a pre boat ceremony for us and we received a blessing and permission to do our work, retreat and go out on the water. Just has we set out from the harbour, I was sitting at the front of the boat with two ladies and large sea turtle came from no where, popped its head up, took a breath and and acknowledged us, this felt like such a blessing and as if to communicate with us, it's time, come on then, lets go.

With to back retreats, travelling, and grid work missions, including a Rose pilgrimage through southern France, 2 weeks in Portugal for a friend's 40th and group gathering / mini festival called Hiraeth, imagine over 60 people in a Sassafras ceremony, there's been much to integrate and process. 

My recent assignments have included a month's initiation in Egypt over Christmas and New Year, which was my 2nd time there in two years. I am getting some idea how it must feel to come back from duty in a war zone, or army training and integrate things that happen under so much pressure, that you can't process at the time. We are not fighting with guns or physical weapons, but in my experience with these groups and retreats, there are energies and forces that don't want us to succeed in what ever mission our group is there for, or seem to attempt to cause drama / friction within the group. Although I managed to get through it unscathed, It taught me that I needed to level up my energetic boundaries, spiritual protection and prayer practice.

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Interestingly, since doing this, a few relationships have fallen away or felt less aligned in my life. I also get to sit with a deep sense of gratitude for life, joy and soul fulfilment.

I am very grateful that life recently gave me some time out from going abroad. In the last year I've contended with my auntie passing away, and my Mother getting cancer diagnosis last year, so focusing back on myself has been very needed and therapeutic.

Since being back on Gozo since February 2026, I really went into a creative, hermit mode and I have taken a step back from my one to one healing sessions, focusing on my own enjoyment of life and fruitful simplicity.

Also enjoying the last bit of time I have with Nanu, my dear white Toyota LiteAce van, that has been my baby and companion since 2022. I've had many adventures and sleeps in this van with my dog, plus trips exploring all corners of Malta and Gozo. It is time now for him to be scrapped and put to bed. I'm happy though as the lady who I bought Nanu, from guessed he only had another 1/2 years left, and its been 4 :).

Lets see what car life brings me next, I am okay to have no vehicle for a bit of time and hope to do more walking and bicycle rides.

I have been contemplating on what life would and could have been like, if I took up either of the 2 offers, of attempted recruitment I've had from The RAF in my life, the first time was when I was 17/18 and at beauty therapy college, while having a short relationship with a man who worked at the local town's RAF base. More recently, as my auntie passed away last year from cancer, and just before I flew to Australia in August 2025, I spent a week in the U.K to attend her funeral and spend time with family.

While at a local pub during the wake, after the funeral, a good family friend who I hadn't seen for years, who works for both the British Armed Forces / RAF and Embassy for Rome/ Malta, said he knew I lived On Gozo now, and that it was close to Malta, would I be interested in a job. Lets just say I'm grateful that I had the awareness to politely turn down these offers and would rather be doing my work from this angle. 

I have been partaking in many sacred ceremonies, trainings, retreats, land and ocean grid activations around the world, plus meeting many interesting mentors, characters from all walks of life... and so many animal encounters. 

I have also been working with the Mary Magdelene Melchizedek Cyprus teachings and mediations which coincided with my first journey to Cyprus last month.

(link to their programmes and courses under the 'Mary Magdalene's Great Passage into the New Earth' tab)

I started this course the day before flying to Cyprus, where I had a one week stay on my way back to Malta from the UK.

After Egypt, I went straight to Southampton, to be close to my Mother, while she underwent Chemo and Radiotherapy' treatments'.  I spent 6 years close to this area while at boarding school from age 11-16, which I'm grateful for now as its made me quite resilient, but at the time felt quite prison like.  It felt good to cover my tracks again and feel what it was like to be there as a more independent, adult human. I also started my Luminous Laura Youtube channel during this period, so managed to alchemize a lot and turn a hard situation into something positive. 

After a month in Southampton, I then carried on with my grid work mission through the UK to London, then west on the train to Bath Spa and Glastonbury.

It was here I got the clear call that it was time to go Cyprus, and booked a week in Larnaca, somewhere Id been wanting to visit for a while. Since being back on the Maltese islands I have written the skeleton of my first book, ( mostly while sitting on top of the well, in the Rose garden at Ta' Pinu church, Gozo, one of my favourite spots on the island, which brings me much peace and comfort ) which will be edited, finished and published in the next year and am slowly working on another that's been in the pipeline for 3 years.

 

Exciting things brewing for Luminosity Wellness Sanctuary 

 

Wishing you, courageous soul, a beautiful, blessed and prosperous year ahead... 

With love and gratitude for you reading this and being here,

 

Laura 

 

 

13.08.23

The Joys of Shadow Work, Its Where the Actual Gold is, although it's not always fun or glamorous when done sincerely. 

This work of individuation is predicted be the name of the game if we wish to thrive in the times to come Luminous Ones....

''Awareness of Ego, the inner reflection, processing work & shadow work is crucial, not just ideal if you are to be sincere and maintain integrity while on the awakening, ascension, embodiment journey.''

 

After a conversation I was having recently with a friend, he said to me '' what do you think will happen when everyone realises they're part of God & how powerful they are, can get what ever they want & and that they're creating their own reality? '' at the time my answer was: well our own discernment of other's intentions will be important. Are they doing the 'shadow' work to align with the divine, or will they create from a place of trauma, control and fear? I also feel awareness of our own shadow, projections and ego side, will be vital to not let it go to our heads and to stay humble and grounded.

In basic terms... if quantum physics is right, collectively and personally, our own external outer reality, what we see, experience or perceive, effects and reflects our inner reality - this lifetime, other lifetimes and the collective unconscious.... beliefs, perceptions, traumas. 

This concept makes me ponder... how much of this is our own creation, and how much is random chaos that we have to fire fight and just endure, perhaps karma? 

So in basic terms, if we can find the courage to look within at our own triggers, fears and suffering,  with our own 'inner war or battle', then our outer world will reflect that. 

One way to think of this is for example... I kept attracting partners or friends that betray or abandon me. When not engaged in the inner work you may go to blaming them and complaining, but keep repeating the cycle in victim mode.

 

Seeing life through the New Earth empowered abundant state of being I would say to myself... 'What is it in me that's attracting this kind of partner?' I realised that I had been abandoning and betraying myself in many situations. This isn't your fault if you're not aware of what's going on. Our past pain body will keep us i these patterns & cycles if we don't consciously feel through things as they come up.

That's not to say there aren't narcissistic people out there to manipulate us and people who are in very hard situations. I can honestly say in the situations I've had with narcissistic partners, friends or family, at the time there was still trauma, a childhood wound or something in me that was still toxic that thought that was normal or something I was worthy of or deserved. I would do anything so they wouldn't leave or abandon me, including abandon my own needs & self! Co dependence at it's best. I also didn't really know how to own my truth, say no or stand up for myself. My people pleasing tendencies led the way most of the time.

But... with all this introspection and self awareness it does take a lot of energy and consciousness so we must go easy on ourselves. Its a process of undoing the conditioning, programming and learnt behaviours that have been passed down to us. This situation we find ourselves in is no fault of our own & we have chosen this on a soul level for us to learn, develop & grow. Unfortunately the majority of people on the planet struggle to feed, house themselves let alone focus on healing their own pain and trauma.

 

 

I was also sparked to think about this topic again a few days ago after listening to an amazing podcast episode with Dr. Kelly Brogan Own Yourself, Authentically with Dr. Kelly Brogan - YouTube and author of 'A mind of your own'.

She openly admits that for years she's been covertly (unconsciously) getting her own needs met, by helping others, finding the enemy externally, and playing the rescuer, hero role. It doesn't take away from her ground breaking work, research and the people she's helped but it does show that when we start paying attention to our own inner reality without distracting ourselves (with work, food, seeing friends, TV, social media, addictions etc) and clean  up our own lives and family unit -  i.e. having therapy, uncomfortable conversations, feeling, presence etc - is there still there same forceful drive to help others & save the world? It may not be a comfortable realisation but since I've started paying attention and being there for my inner world, needs & child, when I help others it's because I truly want to. It's from a place of love & overflow. In the words of Itay Ganot from Modern Mystic Arts -  'God attracts God, shit attracts shit'.

No more obligation or have to. The New Earth doesn't have room for these outdated, disempowering energies. In this paradigm we give & do from a place of wanting to and knowing its benefitting the greater good. When we d the great work or shadow work, we naturally start to become connected to our higher self, connected to source and able to align with divine wil.

 

If you resonate with this information and wish to engage in your own active shadow process, I can highly recommend Bernhard and Laura's (The Veil of Reality) short course Embodied Shadow Work & The Path Of Individuation (thinkific.com) 

 

Much Love

 

 

 

 

 

 

Has body dysmorphia been normalised?

''Acording to Google, Body Dysmorphia is a mental health condition, characterized by an intense, obsessive preoccupation with one or more perceived, minor, or imagined flaws in physical appearance, such as skin, hair, or nose. It causes significant distress and compulsive behaviors, like mirror checking or social isolation, that disrupt daily life''

This topic was put in the spotlight for me when I picked up a magazine when shopping a few weeks ago... which both quite rare occasions now, With the front page heading....

''When we care about more what we look like during the meeting, than the content of the meeting.''

I have experienced deep self loathing and wanting to change things about myself, I only used to be able to go out of the house with make up on until my mid - late 20s where I started to enjoy outdoor life more, camping and focused less on my appearance or whether people admired the way I looked that day, It's as if I was able; through nature and following my soul, heal the inner wounds, layers of doubt and fear that made me see myself in a certain way. 

 We can get all the external work done and endless beauty products, but if we don't look at the deeper reasons as to why we are searching for this, we may get manipulated into decisions that aren't coming from our whole truth. 

Most or all of our insecurities have come from outside of us.

'God/Creator/Source made you perfect.'

It's not about being perfect, but you will start to notice your own perfection when you honour your truth and self deeply. 

 

 

 

 

updated 08/01/2025

True Love Liberates

 Mary Magdelene is all about True Love and  Liberation... (as well as many other things)

 

How can we be truly free?

Taking responsibility for our actions without blaming, shaming ourselves or others and going into victim mode.

Know Thyself.

Follow what LIGHTS YOU UP!

FFDA - Feel the Fear & Do it Anyway!

We have been it all. 

The latest pieces of my own healing journey have been around becoming aware of & clearing darker or 'negative' past lives. This isn't something I'm consciously choosing, but on a soul level I am ready to release some of this now, and the right people & situations have arisen to support me in my process.
I have also released sexual trauma from my earlier years of not being so conscious and self respecting.

This all sounds INTENSE right?! Well yes it is. But it's worth it and has huge significance and purpose I feel not just personally, but collectively & ancestorally. 

It's said that pain & pleasure are on the same spectrum, so by feeling through & transmuting these emotions, we release the blockages & are able to acesss more natural health, joy, pleasure & presence. 

It's easy to blame others and say 'They' did this, how dare 'they' do this to us!?
What about us?

How are we being in the world?

How are we treating ourselves?

Over the last few years I have been really processing a lot. The last time I had a full time job was for a Whistler Blackcomb mountain during their 2017/18 Winter season... since then I've done some bar work in the local pubs on my home island and worked in a hotel spa for a few months when i first moved to Malta 5 years ago, but mostly I've worked for myself, offering treatments either mobile or remotely.

I've found that once I've made the decision or taken the step & sometimes risk into the unknown but following my soul, support will come. Sometimes at the last minute so it does take a shit load of trust. But it's a muscle that can be worked and the more you do it, you know so deeply that you're supported and protected you just make moves without any doubt.
Being naturally empathetic and sensitive / wanting to help others relax and get away from their day to lives, to do lists and 'have to / obligations'; my fascination with holistic healing and health never went away. Plus a curiosity & passion for finding the truth of his/herstory and what's really gone on to bring us to where we are as a civilization, seems to niggle at me.

 

''Don't do anything unless told to by the divine'' is a motto that one of my favourite couples David & Alenka ( The Energy Doctors ) say.
They are good friends, supporters and mentors of mine. Their offerings and space holding has been a big part of my journey over the last 12 months, with Alenka being a close friend since I moved to Gozo in January 2021.

They offer online 1:1, group programmes and in person New Earth Walks on Gozo & Malta which are truly magical and profound. 

edited 13.01.2024